math save us all !!

i know what I did the last time I felt bored and/or completely useless. No, I did not blog. Instead I pondered on why I was getting bored inspite of having stuff to keep me busy. How very...boring!!! So I got myself an iPhone, after wasting 300 change on an iPod touch. I am too far beyond the point of regretting my "second" last purchases. I can't even give charity as the real reason ...not because of a desire of being earnest. Fuck that ! I have spent enough time pondering why/what I do when I do ... Now I just do ! Yeah !! Call it impulsive. What else would you call it? ....

Coming to the real point !!! After trying to educate myself about the the theory of evolution ...wait!! the fact called EVOLUTION for the past 2 years, after countless moments of realization when for the first time being wrong felt so RIGHT and rewarding, after a million racing heartbeats of excitement for having discovered what I did not understand before and how beautiful nature really is, I am now sort of overcome by an utmost sense of despair for not being able to find so many people that share this little enthu of mine. First it was the lack of resources and overwhelming sense of faith coupled with my egocentric nature that blinded me to so many of these amazing things that I was missing out. Even after spending a couple of weeks on the subject when I did have accessibility and people who argued against my medieval philosophies, it took me a while to realize and be humbled about this wonderous little blue planet. It is the just the sort of thing that burns away ego and leaves you gasping for so much more. Every complex thing, even the tiniest of emotions built up step by step over billions of years ... it just makes you feel so insignifact. Although the overwhelming improbability of it assigns you a sense of responsibility to enjoy every bit of what this life gives you. What you do with that is a totally different matter :)..another version of the "ANTHROPIC PRINCIPLE".



But the despair that in-spite of so many exhilarating avenues, there is an even more compelling need for better teachers, those who can be qualitative and offer speculative insight into matters which would otherwise be "COMPLEX" to the layman. This is where I feel that math deals its hand. They should also be able to be quantitative where it deems necessary: first to simplify things, second: to shun theologians from picking and putting together crap from verbose. As an example, some weirdass thing such as the multi-verse theory in physics might knock your socks of. But if you consider the math of it , to physicists it is just an extra dimension viz. an extra variable in their equations, not to demerit the significance of being able to visualize these things and gauge their usefulness. But still ! Who the hell am I to offer any advice?

MCQ:How can we justify this life? a. Feel lucky for being here and spend the rest of what is left trying to find why are we here ? b. Just engage in something to avoid precisely this question ? d. Take a deep breath, join both the arms and get back in bed without the slightest sense of responsibility/humility/curiosity ? IDK !!

To end on something different:POLITICS. In this country being RIGHT has never been so wrong. Did you know Mc. Cain was by Palin's side handing out chits during the Couric interview? Go figure !!